today is the day.i woke up early in the morning and get ready to school. well, it's hard to say actually. ive waited this moment since i first got my offer letter to ipg. indescribable. at first i felt very nervous. before ibu left me in front of the school, she just said everything will be fine. and the moment i step into the school, the kids around started looking at me, "eh cikgu baru laa.cikgu baru". senyum and terus jalan ke office. so sementara nak jumpa GB, ive met the teachers there, and alhamdulillah, they're just motherly. rasa nak menangis when one of the teachers said "ni haa ada anakanda baru masuk ni." and luckily, time assembly i dnt have to give speech. xtahu nak bahasakan diri apa je actually.haha. first time duduk sebaris dgn cikgu2 depan students. years ago, im in the student's place.ive to stand for an hour just for assembly.and now, i can see all the student's bored faces.macam-macam gaya ada budak-budak ni. ohh ya, ada sorang cikgu laki ni dengan confidentnya tanya anak dah berapa,i was like..huhhh???? im just 21 and still single -_- bila dah berhandbag pakai nametag masuk sekolah muka aku ni tua sangat ke? sedih sedih. mungkin dah petanda tu.haha.
so the whole morning i just met the GB, GPK and my mentor. then duduk diam2 kat bilik guru and pretend busy.ive to.sebab xtahu nak buat ape je lagi.nak bual dengan cikgu2 lain tapi xreti.ive lost my skills dealing with the elders.ohh, ive given a table for this whole week.terus feeling macam cikgu berdedikasi. ive finished my borang maklumat sekolah, and sempat siapkan literature terus email kat kacang and sambung buat assignment bmk.see.im very busy today :) time rehat tu, budak2 ramai sana sini.setiap langkah kene senyum. a must! because all the kids seems very excited mungkin sebab ada cikgu baru agaknya. setiap kali jumpa dorg akan bagi salam and cium tangan. tadi je segerombolan datang nak bersalam.tangan cikgu ni xlembut pun.cikgu malu.sobsss.lagi terharu dah jumpa skali ni then terjumpa lagi dorg salam lagi.cikgu culture shock laa students.cikgu xbiasa jadi perhatian ni. kat kantin tu lagi laa.yang makan boleh behenti tengok cikgu baru lalu.muka ni dah xtahu nak senyum cara macam mana lagi.xpelah, seminggu ni tengoklaa muka cikgu ni puas-puas.cikgu okay je.at least cikgu boleh practise cara nak senyum lama-lama nanti.haha
after recess, round satu sekolah.tengok library, blok ict, kelas...sangat bosan buat sorang sorang cmni.next sem whatever pun nak jugak berteman.xdelaa rasa lost sangat. then ada satu cls tu xde cikgu masuk lagi, sebab dah dorang panggil cikgu baru cikgu baru, marilah kita buat sesi beramah mesra. and they asked me to teach them.haihh,xbolehlaa adik-adik, i need to asked the permission first.bukan main terjah masuk cls macam tu je.even dalam hati nak sangat relief cls kosong, tapi xpelah..baru first day.kotye pun semangat sangat janganlaa tunjuk excited tu.haha. pastu xtau kemana duduk balik bilik guru sampai balik. baca paper, siap baca majalah Kuntum tu lagi.wujud lagi rupanya majalah tu.berzaman dah.well, be there with the seniors baru tahu macam mana situation dalam tu.their ukhuwah was very good.mungkin sebab most of them lama mengajar kat situ so they know each other very well. sampai mak mertua cikgu lain sakit pun dorang ambik tahu. and tadi cikgu meja sebelah punyalah kecewa sebab almost satu cls xsiap homework. cuti punya laa lama tapi kerja sikit pun xbuat.anak-anak sekarang ni....hmmm, dulu time aku xbuat homework mungkin camtu jugakaa cikgu kecewa.haihh.muka dia kecewa sampai aku yang tengok ni boleh terasa betapa sedihnya cikgu tu...so untuk harini, alhamdulillah. iA esok and next day pun sama..harap dapat masuk class.ganti untuk sejam pun xpe.harapnya xtinggal harapan semata.
they're all excited when i said jom bergambar.
once u were called "teacher" by students, there is a feeling that u cant describe by any words.
it's too great moment i can say.
alhamdulillah.
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